Last week I worked out 40-50 minutes 6 of the 7 days. Running was my form of exercise for 5 of those days, and I did a kettlebells workout the other.
This week I’m on track for the same sort of thing – yesterday I did 60 minutes of cardio conditioning using a DVD, and today I ran for 50 minutes this morning.
And yet…my body remains stubbornly the same size no matter how much I exercise. It’s frustrating. I track my food and exercise with MyFitnessPal and try to stay under 1600 calories each day, but no matter what I stay the same. I know there’s one way I could become smaller again – a VLCD diet. And I’m just not interested in starving myself again, only to watch as those pounds come back, again, over the next few months.
I remain 20 pounds above where I’d like to be. But 20 pounds beats 200. And when the only way to get them off is starvation, well. I need to work on acceptance.