Last week I went for a run for the first time in a few weeks. I’ll admit it, I’ve been focusing on the Shred DVDs, and walking for cardio, and so it had been a while. I was amazed at how great it was! I was so much faster that I shaved several minutes off my normal time for that route (my shortest – about 2.5 miles). I joked on Twitter that the DVD workouts were either making me a better runner, or just more tolerant of fatigue-related agony. I’m sure it’s both. (If you’re not already following me on Twitter…don’t worry about it. I probably have the most lackadaisical approach to a Twitter feed out there, so you’re not missing much).
This week I started over on Level 1 on Monday and worked on trying the more advanced moves. Today I did Level 2, same deal. There are a few facts about me I do have to acknowledge though – I am never, ever going to be able to do a pushup from my toes. That’s just a fact. Even when I’ve been in the most ripped, fittest, leanest shape of my life (that’d be about 2007), I’ve never been able to do a pushup from my toes. It’s just a limitation of my body I’ve accepted. I still try though.
This week I’ve been working on loving my body exactly as it is. I had a dysfunctional view of my body instilled at a young age, and I’ve always been embarrassed or apologetic about the amount of space I take up, no matter what size I am. I’m over it. I’m sick of feeling like I have to apologize for my body, or feel bad about how wide/tall/heavy/big I am. I am exactly as I’m meant to be. As an old ex of mine used to say, “Allah adores wondrous variety.” How boring it would be if we all looked like fashion models. How dull. I’m bringin’ it with the curvy, sexy, soft, delicious body type I have.