Counting down…

I have more information now about the program I’ll be starting. I have been approved to start, but warned that it will be harder and slower for me than for my husband, because I have “only” 50 pounds to lose. I find that interesting because 50 pounds seems like quite a lot to me. The doctor told me that she was going to have me target 3-5 pounds a week, and I asked her how I could “target” anything since the number of calories one consumed on the program was set, and I already knew I’d have to exercise daily.

She said, “Well, exercising more and not cheating.”

I almost fell down. WHAT? Why on Earth would anybody pay so much money for a program only to cheat on it? I don’t understand that. In my 6 months on HMR 10 years ago I cheated a grand total of …wait for it…ZERO times. Because why would I pay for a program only to cheat myself? That’s just unfathomable to me.

I definitely recognize that aspect of my personality as a huge reason why this sort of program is very effective for me. I can’t seem to do it on my own, but put some money on it, every week, and boy do I fall in line!

The other thing that I think my friends are starting to understand, but perhaps I should spell out, is that I won’t be able to eat anything once I start this program. If I come over for a party, I will not be sampling your snacks. If we go out for dinner, I won’t be ordering anything (and I’d prefer we do something else). That’s one of the baseline rules of the kind of program that works for me – they tell me exactly what to eat, and I don’t need to make any decisions while I’m working on my loss. Not one. I can’t eat your lovely casserole. Not, not even vegetables. Not an apple. Not a nibble of anything that I didn’t receive from my program. On the other hand, you don’t need to worry about me for planning purposes, I’m not going to ask you to change your menu for my special needs or make any allowances whatsoever, because I’m completely self-contained and I’ve got it covered.

Does that sound draconian to you? A lot of people feel that way. I find it to be extremely liberating, because I know that if I follow the rules and do exactly what the plan has specified, I will lose weight. Easy as can be. I can relax in the knowledge that since I’m doing what I agreed to do, my body will do what I want it to do. For me, this is perfection.

Honestly, I wish I was fabulously wealthy just so I could hire a private chef whose only job was to prepare meals that keeps my weight where I want it. Somebody who would do all the math and prep work and present me with my daily food. I don’t even care if it’s the same thing every day. If it’s something I like, I will happily eat the same thing every day.

Alas. My life doesn’t work like that. But, to say that I’m looking forward to my program starting next week would be an understatement.


6 Responses to “Counting down…”

  1. Caron Says:

    I’m glad you’ve been approved for the program. I also love your positive attitude toward it all. Now that you will be turning things around, you should be able to relieve some of the stress of worrying about your weight. Yea!

    I can kind of see where the doctor is coming from because I’ve heard doctors say things like “You can lose the weight, but you WON’T keep it off.” I read about people who pay huge amounts of money for gastric bypass surgery and then their attention seems to go to “How can I cheat with this?” Ah, the weirdness of the human race. Ha ha

    Here’s wishing you great success with your plan. 🙂

  2. Karen Williams Says:

    Good for you for joining this program, and I’m glad you’ve been accepted. I’m looking forward to seeing less of you.

  3. Donna Says:

    The pays your money why would you cheat thing makes sense to me … but look at Ken’s stories about his students who don’t come to class. They too are paying big bucks for a self improvement plan, yet they blow it off. Also, this doctor doesn’t know you (yet) and your iron clad determination on this topic 🙂
    As to the private chef … if Cathyn is on the plan too and part of the plan teaches him what and how much you can eat, in the long run you will be getting that private chef 🙂
    I promise to restrain myself in offering you any food or drink. I’ll think of non-food activities we can do.

  4. Karla Says:

    I cheated on those programs I paid money for… It seemed like (and was) such a waste on money!!! Took me years to figure out I know what needs to be done… I just have to do it! Those events with food will be simple for you… You are FOCUSED!!! Go girl 🙂

  5. Laurie Says:

    I’m interested in where you’ve set your goal weight, because you have said previously that the place you “really wanted” to be at was ten to fifteen pounds less than your body really wanted to maintain.

    Again I salute your focus and determination. I continue to be impressed by your honesty and your strength.

    And ditto to Donna’s mentioning of non-food-centric fun things to do. Music? Dance? Museums? Let’s do some more local tourism wherein we can pack our own food.

    Laurie / Morgan

  6. snapshotstacy Says:

    How awesome that you’ve been approved for the program!
    I’m starting a Whole30 in the morning… and I’m nervous as all get out – but, I’m determined to see it through and hopefully I’ll get rid of the 15 lbs that crept back on me (and maybe a few more).

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