I have more information now about the program I’ll be starting. I have been approved to start, but warned that it will be harder and slower for me than for my husband, because I have “only” 50 pounds to lose. I find that interesting because 50 pounds seems like quite a lot to me. The doctor told me that she was going to have me target 3-5 pounds a week, and I asked her how I could “target” anything since the number of calories one consumed on the program was set, and I already knew I’d have to exercise daily.
She said, “Well, exercising more and not cheating.”
I almost fell down. WHAT? Why on Earth would anybody pay so much money for a program only to cheat on it? I don’t understand that. In my 6 months on HMR 10 years ago I cheated a grand total of …wait for it…ZERO times. Because why would I pay for a program only to cheat myself? That’s just unfathomable to me.
I definitely recognize that aspect of my personality as a huge reason why this sort of program is very effective for me. I can’t seem to do it on my own, but put some money on it, every week, and boy do I fall in line!
The other thing that I think my friends are starting to understand, but perhaps I should spell out, is that I won’t be able to eat anything once I start this program. If I come over for a party, I will not be sampling your snacks. If we go out for dinner, I won’t be ordering anything (and I’d prefer we do something else). That’s one of the baseline rules of the kind of program that works for me – they tell me exactly what to eat, and I don’t need to make any decisions while I’m working on my loss. Not one. I can’t eat your lovely casserole. Not, not even vegetables. Not an apple. Not a nibble of anything that I didn’t receive from my program. On the other hand, you don’t need to worry about me for planning purposes, I’m not going to ask you to change your menu for my special needs or make any allowances whatsoever, because I’m completely self-contained and I’ve got it covered.
Does that sound draconian to you? A lot of people feel that way. I find it to be extremely liberating, because I know that if I follow the rules and do exactly what the plan has specified, I will lose weight. Easy as can be. I can relax in the knowledge that since I’m doing what I agreed to do, my body will do what I want it to do. For me, this is perfection.
Honestly, I wish I was fabulously wealthy just so I could hire a private chef whose only job was to prepare meals that keeps my weight where I want it. Somebody who would do all the math and prep work and present me with my daily food. I don’t even care if it’s the same thing every day. If it’s something I like, I will happily eat the same thing every day.
Alas. My life doesn’t work like that. But, to say that I’m looking forward to my program starting next week would be an understatement.