Fall Down 7 Times, Get Up 8

Hi. This is about to become a weight loss journal for a while.

My name is Laina and I’m bloody sick of managing my weight. Here we go again…I weighed in this morning since I was traveling on Tuesday, my normal weigh in day. I need to lose 10 pounds. I’d like to lose 20, but I’m starting with 10. Somehow, since February I’ve picked up 10 pounds. I’ve also somehow decided recently that I have a lot of trouble losing weight, so it’s going to be a hard slog. I’m back on HMR Healthy Solutions for the foreseeable future, which means that social occasions are going to be different for me – no restaurant eating (except plain veggies and/or fruit).

I can’t even begin to convey how bored I am with this whole process. Like I said yesterday, sometimes I feel like  total failure, because I have to keep doing this “lose/gain/lose” process, and sometimes I feel like a shining beacon of success, because I do keep doing it. Today my friend Michelle posted over on the Facebook the following quote, which I love love love: “Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did.”

Yeah. I’m feeling it today.

This morning, ran for 45 minutes. Tomorrow morning, planned run for an hour. Today, journal every bite that goes in my mouth, I’m on HMR shakes, entrees, fruits and veggies only. Future: Weigh myself every day. It keeps me accountable.

Goal weight: 200

Today weight: 209.5

*big sigh* Here we go again.

To help me with my motivation, and to avoid the self-recriminations that often come with another cycle of weight loss, I look flippin’ fabulous today. My friend Sarah made me a wrap dress of peacock fabric (I’ve been wearing peacocks for 20 years now… they’re kinda my thing). So, I have to be on a diet, but I feel and look great. Onward!

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16 Responses to “Fall Down 7 Times, Get Up 8”

  1. transformationpics Says:

    Totally understand your frustration. What we do is shoot for a weight that is 5-10 lbs UNDER our true weight goal. That way it leaves room for some “life events”. So when we get to close to the top end of that range, we are still beneath our goal but understand the need to “tighten” things up a bit.

  2. John R. Schmidt Says:

    You look Mahvelous! And I’ve got a water here for you when you need it.

  3. lisalys Says:

    That is an *awesome* quote. I need to get back with it, too, and if I’m sick of it after a year, I can’t imagine how hard it will be in the future. But my pants were a little snug today, so no more excuses!!

  4. Carol Smith Lynch Says:

    Me to Laina hang in there you inspire me!

  5. Amy Says:

    Well, we all know you can doo eet!

  6. Yoko Says:

    Awwww Laina, I know just how you feel. I ended up gaining a few pounds from entertaining for work. I’m back on my plan too. The peacock dress is a great inspiration! I guess I’d better go get some fabric and make some clothes to boost my spirits. It is so hard to keep up the good eating plan and not get tired of the discipline. So easy to slip back into old habits. One sneaks 1 bite here, another bite there – next thing you know, the scale gives you a wake-up call and you are back on the program. What is great about you is that you don’t let it go past 10 pounds. You are going to slap that extra weight back into oblivion! I’m proud to know you! You are still my best inspiration.

  7. overextended Says:

    I so understand. I am up 10 pounds as well. I’d also like to lose 20. Secretly, I’d like to lose 30.

    The truth of the matter is this: we know what works. We’ve done it before. We can do it again. I have faith in us.

    I’ll be cheering you on tomorrow, while run and track my food as well.

    • Laina Says:

      Yep, you’re right on. We can do it again.
      (secretly I’d like to lose 30 too but my husband likes me with some padding, and honestly I know what it takes to maintain it and I don’t wanna..)
      Enjoy your run tomorrow!

  8. Maria Says:

    I’m losing weight right now (VLCD) and your blog is a true inspiration. It’s also a bit terrifying to read because it shows me how much effort I need to invest in keeping the weight off in the future. At least I’m facing reality even before reaching my goal.

    Very few share their experiences after a weight loss like you do, and I have found none i Sweden where I live. So please keep blogging! It doesn’t matter if you’re having a good or bad day, you’re always a shining beacon of inspiration to me.

  9. Princess Dieter Says:

    Yep. Get up as many times as necessary. 😀 And you DO look flipping fabulous. You carry 210 lbs exceedingly nicely!!! I’d never have guessed it was that much. You’ll do it. AGAIN. STruggling right along here to lose the 5 I regained. Later…

  10. snapshotstacy Says:

    I’m gearing up to do another round of my VLCD. I’m hoping to drop another 10-15, but 20 would be awesome. 🙂 I’m squeezing it in between the SF Marathon (I’m doing the progressive!) and my Edible Pedal 50 ride. Yikes!

    I’ve been working on the C25K program. I’m in the middle of repeating week 2. And, I never thought I’d be to the point where I enjoyed exercising like this – but I am!

    I really need to get back to my blogging… it really helped with keeping me solidly on track. I’m still solidly maintaining in a 4 pound window, though, so I’m pretty happy with that.


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