Hi. This is about to become a weight loss journal for a while.
My name is Laina and I’m bloody sick of managing my weight. Here we go again…I weighed in this morning since I was traveling on Tuesday, my normal weigh in day. I need to lose 10 pounds. I’d like to lose 20, but I’m starting with 10. Somehow, since February I’ve picked up 10 pounds. I’ve also somehow decided recently that I have a lot of trouble losing weight, so it’s going to be a hard slog. I’m back on HMR Healthy Solutions for the foreseeable future, which means that social occasions are going to be different for me – no restaurant eating (except plain veggies and/or fruit).
I can’t even begin to convey how bored I am with this whole process. Like I said yesterday, sometimes I feel like total failure, because I have to keep doing this “lose/gain/lose” process, and sometimes I feel like a shining beacon of success, because I do keep doing it. Today my friend Michelle posted over on the Facebook the following quote, which I love love love: “Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did.”
This morning, ran for 45 minutes. Tomorrow morning, planned run for an hour. Today, journal every bite that goes in my mouth, I’m on HMR shakes, entrees, fruits and veggies only. Future: Weigh myself every day. It keeps me accountable.
Goal weight: 200
Today weight: 209.5
*big sigh* Here we go again.
To help me with my motivation, and to avoid the self-recriminations that often come with another cycle of weight loss, I look flippin’ fabulous today. My friend Sarah made me a wrap dress of peacock fabric (I’ve been wearing peacocks for 20 years now… they’re kinda my thing). So, I have to be on a diet, but I feel and look great. Onward!