I’m in a bad pain cycle right now. I have a chronic back pain issue and recently it’s been ferociously bad. I’m in a cycle right now where I take a flexeril and a vicodin to stop the pain at night so I can sleep. It works really well, but I wake up extremely groggy. I get the whole next day without pain and I don’t need to take drugs to sleep that night, but the day after – back to massive pain and I have to take a flexeril and vicodin in the evening to stop the pain (I would happily take it in the morning when the pains starts except for the whole “having to think straight to do my job” thing). So I spend almost every other day in a significant amount of back pain lately.
I’ve tried all of the following in the last two years to deal with it:
- Physical therapy
- Egoscue method
- Core Strengthening
- Not exercising
- Hot baths
- Pain medication (see above)
So, I woke up this morning extremely groggy and hating my body. A different kind of hate from what a lot of women feel. I don’t hate the size or shape of my body. I hate that it is apparently never going to give me two pain-free days in a row again in my entire life. I am literally at my wits end. I have an acupuncture appointment schedule for Feb 28th (the earliest they could do) which is the only thing that gives me much relief from the constant pain. But that’s a month away.
When I woke up groggy today I thought, I need to get some exercise. I also thought, but that’s going to make me hurt again tomorrow. And then I realized – I’m going to hurt again tomorrow whether I exercise today or not. Swimming on Thursday likely caused Friday’s painfest. Running will most certainly exacerbate the situation. Elliptical is so boring. Walking isn’t vigorous enough for my needs. So fuck it, I’m going swimming again.
I figured I’d give my body a break and just do 50 laps because I noticed that certain muscles in my arms were a little sore from Thursday night’s workout, but then I found that my body didn’t even start feeling good in the water today until I got to about lap 48, so I pushed on and did 100. Today it only took me 60 minutes, so my form seems to be tightening up as I go. That was a surprise.
But the pain thing is so, so draining. I know I’m going to hurt either way no matter what kind of exercise I do. Might as well do the workout I’m enjoying, and give myself a reason to like my body today.