Today I finally bit the bullet and got some gear I needed to keep running. I’d been trying to put it off because what I needed was expensive, but in the end it’s worth it to me to have the gear so I don’t give myself an excuse not to do my exercise. So now I have my fancy compression pants to replace the old ones, I have no excuses for not running this weekend.
This week has been very challenging for me mentally because I wasn’t able to weigh in on Tuesday. I find that the weeks that I don’t weigh in I worry a lot more about what is going on than the weeks that I do. It’s a double-edged sword, because the reason I don’t weigh in during my menstrual cycle is because seeing the 3-6 pound gain I get every month during that time will cause me a lot of anxiety, but also NOT weighing in causes me to imagine all sorts of scenarios that have no basis in reality. In my mind my daily missteps get magnified and my successes minimized when I can’t see what’s actually going on with cold hard numbers. But I don’t want to get on the scale to see that it’s all true – even though it won’t be next week!
Scale management for me is mental management. I’d like to tell you I’ve got this all handled and sorted out but I still have to work at not being a complete head case every day. Some days more than others!